Pre-op 10 years on T

I started my transition in November of 2015, over 10 years ago. When I first started I told myself I’d get top surgery by my one year on testosterone mark, but that came and went. Now sitting here typing this it feels like I told myself that a lifetime ago.

Some days are harder than others, some are easier than others, the reality is though that this is what it’s like for a lot of transgender people. Getting surgery and even just transitioning in general is a privilege. Hormones for the most part are pretty financially accessible, surgery on the other hand, even with insurance, is thousands of dollars out of pocket immediately, with bills equaling the same amount if not more to come post op.

I’ve made choices over the years to put other things first, like buying a home, buying a car, enjoying my life in the present. But I have sadly paid the price of that with how I view myself and how I feel daily. I always say this year will be the year, and then it never is, and that’s okay.

It will come for me, just as it will for you one day, for now keep positive, stay hopeful, and try to enjoy your life as much as you can in the moment.